The Gym, The yogurt...and being fat

It's 7.16pm and I'm eating my yogurt right now...The Marigold 0% Fat Yogurt Blueberry with Calcium & Fibre...Wait , wait ....Adli eating yogurt....?...Yupp....He is.... Something that had become a norm about 2 month ago....

Yogurt..call it Dadih..call It Susu Masam...whatever you called it...it is basically Cultured Solid Milk.. I remeberred those days when i was young, Mak indulged Yogurt as part of her morning diet. Her favourite flavour, the pineapple. Realising, it was a "health" food, the siblings and I tried to favour it. The siblings dislike it totally,... me.....hmm...i can't appreciate it either, yet noding to the health benefit of it....eating a spoon of it. Was wondering will people like it, if it is not a "health" food...

Adli was fat....that was a fact...I was fat....The trauma that i didn't really realised when it happened....Remembered abah, mak, kak ina, kak ijah and abang aki, were eager convincing me to cut down my food and to exercise...when i was at the other end ...wondering ..why i need to do that...?...

I was then....barely 12......Some said, the side effect of post "sunat" even...some saide...the pre puberty period....some said it was the genetic....Hmm, what ever it is...at that point...I was fat...and luckily (or maybe not)...I didn't really agree to it, as i thought i was not fat.....hehehe...no self insight laa kiranya....so basically there was no real trauma on my side then, of being fat...I remembered Kak Ina was mad at me and playing jokes of me was I wroter Kad Raya"ejek"ing Shahir for him being fat..(Shahir was my primary school's best friend)....while on the other hand ...I was fat...yet as said..i didn't realised I was fat

So I was fat...proudly walking thinking I was not..entering secondary school....putting all the embarrasing moments of senior year to Kak Ina's life as she was the fifth former in the school, having a Form 1 brother who was fat....hehehe...not just fat...I have other "insignificant"attitude that as she claimed, that "dirtily tarnishing" her reputation..

Reality check....was I fat..?....hmm....yes and no....I was definitely PLUMP...yet fat fat...not that really....but "luckily" inheriting more of my mother side...being short and naturally "healthy" looking...a bit more weight, look like added pounds to my frame....so..in short..I was plump looking fat boy....

So when i Started realising it.....hmm...maybe at the end of my form 3....Not that I really think I was fat...but i started to exercise more, and bit more careful of my food.....I was doing aerobic at home...and it did help a lot...and that Isnin Khamis fasting, and that 3 months continuous fasting I practice before, did trimmed my figure to be relatively normal...so when I was fifth former...I was not fat...not that plump...but may look chubby at certain time.....Luckily, I was not FAT during my senior year...hahahha

Matriculation, was a healthy life....I started to jog, squash weekly and food was hard to get there...hahahah....I was not fat neither thin.... Medical School...I jog once in a while, swim sometime...so no much different it makes to the whole look i had...

I guess life started changed when I was in O&G...seeing all my other collegues with gym membership....I was against it, thinking it was a waste of money, and just a membership to a stylish created lifestyle of new urban young generation who think being healthy equal to that.....I was so against it....spreading my belief and fighting the right of no gym lifestyle....Yet, i was at the losing end ....the people grew healthier and fitter...while I becoming more sedentary..leaving the new jogging shoes, well kept at the back of bonet...

Something happen...i decided to visit Celebrity Fitness....and that's it..history changed from gym hater...i'm a gym goer...changed to gym believer...not that it is important to be in gym..but for a person like me...the gymnasium helped me to initiate something that was rather impossible to initiate ..the initiation of moving my limbs to what so called exercise........I started going to the gym....and felt the impact and the fun of working out...yet I'm not the gym worshipper..my session is usually less then an hour..adequate ..just adequate to keep me moving ..and feel fitter...

I didn't aim to be bulky neither body beautiful..the aim is to be fit...to get the lean and tone body. Without realising it as well, being in the gym make me aware of what i eat, as i always reminded of the session that i had worked for...rewarded myself sometime ...yet aware of my intake ..saying that ..i do take more food in amount at most ..

Contrary to what happened before, saying that may sound possible to go with Adli ...somehow being heard said by people.."You are thin laa Adli..."..."Ehh apa jadi dah kurus.."...."Ehh.....u r aneroxic ker?"....weirdly...that happened....yet the truth is...i am neither thin nor aneroxic ...but i'm just not fat anymore, i am between plump and normal.....never thin....only that compare to before..i am a bit smaller...A BIT smaller....I still got fat there and there ...just i don't look fat...yet i'm still not fully fit and tone ....so I am still far from the aim...but felt a bit healthier....

However, it had been 2 weeks since my last workout...as i was down with fever and flu, and still not fully recover...felt my body not fit, flabby and not energetic ...a bit afraid of gaining that pound , as what i did was mostly sit and sleep, and eat ......the fear of being fat ..being fat again....

So what about the yogurt?...hehe..it was really nothing .,..just somehow ...i started to like eating it...the non tasty yogurt turn out to be rather delightable....not a fantastic food ..yet a reasonable food to snack on....i'm not sure either I find it reasonable because subconciously it is a healthy food...or i am genuinely liking it.....yet in reality ...i'm snacking to yogurt rather frequently especially during my work in the Clinic.....

Hmm.....saying all that....yuppp....people changed...situation do change..i was fat, now i'm not that fat anymore....i was not into yogurt, now i snack on it.....i was a gymhater, now a gymgoer.....So i truly believe things can change....infact ..things do change.....

The only thing about this thing .... that i hope will not change ......i hope i will never be FAT again....